As I originally started this blog to understand my mental health. I need to add that I’ve been having flashbacks to my trauma and emotions from many years ago. I feel like I am exceptionally emotional and picking up on all vibes of people who’ve been through similar experiences. It is so hard to deal with…especially as im a nurse and expected to just be able to. Most of my colleagues are oblivious. They don’t care, not about me, but about the people they’re supposed to care about. I’m considering leaving nursing soon. I cant be in this system anymore. Its making me feel isolated and empty. I want to help…but its rare to want to


Life goes on

I’m back in work after almost 3 months off sick. Pretending again. As i mentioned i even pretended to myself i wasnt ill. Truth is, I’ve realised that I will always likely be ill on some level if the conventional way of thinking is dictating what is normal. But, am i abnormal? Am i actually ill? Or am i one of millions of people who feel things deeply? Should we write people off as being ill because they feel and act in an an unconventional manner? Maybe people like me are crying out to not feel isolated and like a freak. I believe my empathy for others is why i get so depressed, i feel the hurt of others. Yet if i admitted what went on in my head id be medicated or sectioned. Maybe more people need to realise that the deepest darkest emotions arent abnormal…they’re normal and not to feel this pain and suffering is actually not to feel human. Where are my fellow humans? I wonder

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